Tabs not loading/disappearing Safari

OK, I just wanted to see if I’m crazy or someone else this experience. I’m on the latest MacOS Beta for what it’s worth

  • Browsing in Safari, everything great
  • CMD+T open new tab
  • CMD+L address bar (type address hit enter)
  • CMD+(insert number to get to any other tab)

Then sometimes a website will load, sometimes it won’t load but the tab stays there. Other times the tab just disappears like I never did any of that stuff.

It’s weird because I can’t really reproduce it or even really notice it until it happens, which makes me believe Safari might be gaslighting me lol.